"heartbreaker no more." -- indian dimple

why can't i just think of you and not cry.  i remember you every now and then, but my eyes still shed tears, why? we have good memories of each other, but why does my heart aches every time i remember you?  

i was once asked, to remember the people who made me cry most and hurt me -- then i cried.  i know in my heart that i do not hate you at all, i know deep inside me that i have no anger or anything against you...but i am sad.  

i wanted to smile again every time i remember you.  i wanted to have the excitement again every time i look back and think of you.    

how can your goodbye give tears and cover all our good memories?  why can't i look at your photos without sadness in my eyes?   

this is sad, really sad.

can you grab my hand, and hold it tight near your heart.  
can you wrap your arms around me, and keep me warm without letting me go.  
can you stay here beside me, and stare at my eyes with your unspoken words.  
can you close your eyes, and feel me lying side by side with you.  
can you rest your head to my chest, and listen to my pounding heart screaming your name.  
can your fingers play around my every skin,  and and caress my body with your warm touch.  
can you breathe warm breath at the back of my ears, and whisper sweet words that touches my heart and soul.  
can you kiss my waiting and wanting mouth, and taste my sweet lips and tongue owning you.  


this is between you and me, in our very own imagination world.  
at this very moment, here in our very own place.  
just for now.